i'm still really upset that my paeds elective has "poofed" into thin air. ARGH.

but a kind friend has offered to let me do an ortho elective with him so that's alright now! :D ortho is way more fun than paeds and it's important for exams too so that should be fine.

but what i don't get is:
WHY TELL US SO LATE!!!!

yes, this is a rant against the administration.
they jolly well knew that they were taking year 3s for that period in which we'd applied for electives so they'd be unable to handle us at that time as well.
and i'm sure they had all this planned long ago too.
so why tell us only now???

i'd already planned and settled all my elective slots, only to have it ruined by a cursory late announcement like that. why not tell us right from the start when announcing elective choices?

it irks me that students are taken so lightly. it's as if we don't matter at all, we're an afterthought.

they can't even be bothered to tell us properly, just a short email with 3 lines to it.
not even any apologies. and my elective supervisor didn't even know! good golly.

i know students aren't that important, but for goodness sakes, would it kill you to have released that announcement 3 months earlier or something once you knew?

it's not just me who's affected, it's a whole bunch of us.

it smacks of high-handedness and uppityness. don't look down on us please. we're humans too!

now i've to find something to do in that one week between surgery and ortho. ARGH.

(here's an explanation for jess!)
where i come from, we have an elective period of several months after completing most of our core curriculum at the end of year 4. so we get to do stuff we want to during this period, or we have to do remedial postings if we've done badly in any of our current postings - i'm scheduled for one boooo.
anyway, we have finals at the end of year 5, which is why the elective period is so important because it affords you: 1) the chance to brush on your weak subjects before heading into the "death" year, so to speak; and 2) the chance to do something you really like that you haven't gotten enough of in the core curriculum!

hope that explains it sufficiently! :D

and thanks a million xavi and jess!

my paeds elective just got cancelled! :(

and i have and ENT test tomorrow that i haven't studied for yet. :(

can my life get any worse?

pardon the melodrama but oh, i really did need that paeds elective to have a chance in hope of passing my finals, having done paeds so very very very long ago!

WOE. am most definitely NOT HAPPY.

all the love in the world for ENT isn't really helping right now. arghhh

I PASSED OB/GYN!!!!!

thank the sweet Lord above for merciful grace!

although i didn't quite do as well as i'd hoped (i'm in the bottom half of the class), and this quite puts a rethink to my OB/GYN dreams, i'm happy :)

passing was what i asked for, and passing is what i have received :) shouldn't be greedy!

next time, i will work harder. but then, what's the point in burning out so early?

my mantra has always been:

PASS=M.D.

and i'll keep it that way :)

FOR NOW: OB/GYN is over!!!!! but i'm still applying for a rotation in it no matter what - delivering babies is truly thrilling, and i can't get enough!

I LOVE OTOLARYNGOLOGY !!!!!!

(or ear, nose throat - ENT for the uninitiated)

i have been standing in clinics for the past 2 days, non-stop. ordinarily, i would be complaining about backache and how boring it has gotten. but strangely, i am energetic and well, my back doesn't ache as much as it should!

it might be the lovely doctors who're ever so willing to teach, or the interesting cases i see.

then again, it might entirely be the free drinks machine. coffee anyone? i have been max-ing out on my caffeine. OOPS.

but seriously, although i hate hate hate looking down microscopes, ENT has been fascinating. i actually want to read up on it to know more. i want to peer down the endoscope and see vocal cords and other things.

whoohoo!!!

i actually felt an enlarged lymph node today. amazing. usually i'm the one who'll completely miss it, but today, i actually got to feel it. and a thyroglossal cyst!
but on a more sombre note, thankfully both conditions were benign.

i went up to the wards, and spoke to a patient's mother. it made me greatly upset. but more details another time.

for now, i have to present the case at grand ward rounds to the prof tomorrow. i'm trying not to quake in my shoes about my lack of knowledge about quinsy, so i'm off to read up and try not to get royally owned! ;)

thanks for all the comments on ENT! i haven't decided if i'm going to do it, but it's definitely one of my top few choices. :)

after being assured by the rest of my cohort who had already sat for the opthalmology posting exams that it was as easy as pie, i went into the exam room, well, not very prepared. a gross understatement.

as it stands, i managed to completely fluff 2 slides out of 10, and mess up quite a bit of the rest. hopefully i'll scrape a pass!

this is a severe reminder that "easy as pie" is only true IF you have studied. i really really do need to remind myself that not everyone takes things so lightly. and i neither should i, really.

i realise that eye surgery freaks me out. as in, REALLY freaks me out. i can't stand the thought of anything touching my eye besides my contact lens!

i don't know how the glaucoma patients do it, when they have their IOP measured with applanation tonometry. how can they sit there passively and let the probe touch their eye? me, i'd bolt.

we had our IOPs measured, and it took me 8 tries to finally open my left eye enough as they fired air jets into it. OWWWW. that was freaky enough!!!! thankfully, i don't have glaucoma.

and eye surgery is way cool, but also way freaky. the thought of cutting an eyeball? just a NO-NO. cutting some's abdomen, yes. cutting someone's head, yes. nose, yes, throat yes, legs and hands, yes. basically, anywhere besides the eye = yes.

to be awake as the surgeon gives a retro-bulbar anaesthetic to numb your eye? OWWWW. i almost freaked out.

and worst: to be able to see the scalpel coming to your eye whilst you have stitches removed in clinics on follow-up? MAJORLY FREAKY.

patients definitely have more courage than me. i guess if you really need to, you summon up the courage from somewhere. but oh please, dear God, don't let me be the one needing eye surgery now. call me a wuss, but oh, really! i can't stand anything touching my eye!

corneal transplant

then again, being me, i still do want to have LASIK. ahhhh, the price of being vain!

but opthalmology is OVER! and now, for ENT!

am back! and most sadly, have started school :(

HOLIDAYS ARE NEVER ENOUGH :(

but i've had good trips so i'm happy! can't ask for too much eh.

i managed to catch the rugby world cup finals (albeit a delayed telecast!) and was HORRENDOUSLY DISAPPOINTED.

ENGLAND HOW COULD YOU DO THIS!!!!!

ok, i know it's not their fault, but arghhh. i was so rooting for england to win!

alright enough of that!

like i said, i'm back in the hospital now, and am looking into the windows of people's souls.

so opthalmology isn't that boring after all! unfortunately, am as blind as bat. whilst everyone else seems to have no problem using a fundoscope to see lovely beautiful optic discs that are hyperaemic/cupped/elevated margins/pale etc etc, i have problem even seeing the blood vessels of the eyes. :( am a complete utter failure at this. i can't even tell if the blood vessels lead to optic discs, and have blinded several patients with my (borrowed) fundoscope by now, i'm sure, with the blindingly bright light i use.

fortunately, a nice resident told me to steal some pupil dilators (short acting) from the clinics, and to go home and dilate my family member's pupils before bed and to see their eyes. teehee. will be trying that out soon, and i'm keeping my fingers crossed in hope that i finally do succeed! :)

going to the OR and being allowed to look down the zeiss microscope during a cataract surgery (a phacoemulsification) was THE BEST THING EVER! i can see just why people fall in love with opthalmology. the clarity of the images, the delicacy of the surgeries, and the feeling of satisfaction when the lens slides in place; you just know that you've done something incredible and helped this man/woman get sight back.

AHHHHH. the miracles of modern medicine! incredible.

also saw a botox jab to relieve a facial spasm. also incredible.

but botox is so freaking expensive! 300 for unilateral crow's feet, and 400 for unilat upper eyelid jabs. eeks. plus you've to redo them every 6 months or so.

eye candy abounds in this department, no doubt. the guys have been trying their darndest not to drool at all the lovely females around, most of whom would be considered v pretty by most standards.

in the male eye candy department, it is rather lacking, sadly! but i've found one who more than makes up for it. he's earnest, kind, and willing to sign my attendance so i can go off early. OOPS. and he's so geeky cute! i'm such a sucker for geeky guys who're cute. suffice to say he's the reason i drag myself to early morning clinics when i'd otherwise be at home sleeping. and meeting him in the OR was the best thing ever! :)

oh dear. i realise how pathetic that sounds. but it'll be over soon, we're moving on!

all in all, i don't think i'm going to do opthalmology though, it's too narrowed and sub-specialised for me. i think i'd lose interest quickly.

one more week! and then i move to another glamourous specialty. but tests and reports await first :(

i can safely say that otolaryngology interests me far far FAR more than opthalmology. bring on the scopes and hearing devices!