IT'S OVERRRRRRRRRR!!!! -flings papers in the air merrily and prances around-

YAY!!!

admittedly, it wasn't a perfect paper (in my dreams only!) but heck, i'm hoping that it was enough to pass!

now i'm off to enjoy myself, head to the beach for a tan and some sand, sun, sky and (pseudo) surf! the 4 "S"s stand for 4 of my most favourite things in the world :D

there's a little black cloud on the horizon, that is, the pass-fail results on monday which determines whether i'll need to sit for an oral exam, but right now, i'm just going to take it easy and worry about it then! :)

it's do or die!

1 more day to the beginning of the end, and then hopefully i'll be free and escape the re-paper.

nothing is staying in my head at the moment, it's a "i vaguely know the answers, but i don't know the answers" kind of feeling.

it's quite terrible, and I HATE PATHOLOGY.

then again, maybe positive feedback and positive pyschology does wonders, so I LOVE PATHOLOGY! I LOVE PATHOLOGY! I LOVE PATHOLOGY!

to stave off boredom and stress, i watched chariots of fire tonight, and ohmygosh, the boys are so young and handsome and the show is so totally inspiring! no prizes for guessing my favourite - lord andrew lindsay! i'm a sucker for bright smiles and bright eyes :D

cute medic boy made a reappearance today (if only for a few seconds!), smiled at me, and then promptly disappeared back into the bowels of the hospitals for his examination prepations. the seniors sure have it much harder - the final FINALS are coming up! :( and that's going to be me all too soon.
(tlm - just how do you stand it!)

and heath ledger is dead! OMG how did that happen! according to the reports it seems that the anti-insomniac drug he took had a bad side effect? maybe it was the synergism of all the pyschiatric drugs he's been taking. :( still, it's a great loss! :(

alright, it's back to pathology. slides and histology, cytology and gross specimens, my brain is exploding and cumulating in a liquefactive mess of necrosis and inflammatory infiltrates of predominantly neutrophilic nature!
yes, being nerdy helps i hope! :)

ps: THANKS JESS! :)

just a quick update - i'm alive!

barely, but alive. i'm drowning under mountains of paper and books that i haven't seen since we ended year 2, of which they're only examining us on right now.

i've skimmed through the syllabus once through but i can't remember anything, unfortunately :( hopefully it'll come back to me when i start doing the questions! have been camping in my friend's room for the past few days and i'm finally home for the weekend (internet access, hooray!) and it's really good to see my parents again :)

no signs of cute medic boy though! :(

the stress has permeated every corner of the library and school, and it's KILLING ME :(

hopefully it'll all come together in the next week! ONE MORE WEEK to exams!

may you all keep safe and enjoy yourselves! :)

today was another happy day! :D


1. my college softball team won the tourney! :D with me as honourary coach and cheerleader. if only i was staying in college this term i'd be eligible to play! darn it, the 1 year i don't stay and play, they win. murphy's law :( but i'm still so happy! :D

2. cute medic boy was studying at the next table all of today! when i left to go watch the match, he was there, and when i came back, he was still there! and he said hi and bye to me as i left. YAY! :D

studying is coming along, but painfully slowly. :( am desperately worried i won't even complete one round of reading, but i'm going to do the best i can.

it's a ban on computers for the next 2 weeks! :( wish me luck please!

i'm back! :) and it's really lovely to be home. i cried the minute i stepped out of the plane into the familiar airport. my goodness.

but it's so good to be home! good golly, i sound like a real homebody. i guess i must be! i have no idea how i'm going to manage to endure 10 weeks away from home during my electives!

many thanks for all the well-wishes and calming comments! i did manage to make it for my lecture (which proved useless) and submit the online forms. and wrangle an extension from the admin staff for the submission of the other forms.

but OH MY GOODNESS i totally miscounted the days to my exams! and now i have 2 weeks left instead of 3. OMG. i am SO SO SO DEAD. i really have to work much much harder now and my hopes of passing have just about gone downhill drastically, but hopefully it's still do-able somehow.

2 weeks left to exams! which means i will wake up in the wee hours of the morning, stumble blearily to school and attempt to study, take lots of breaks in between and gossip and play games, and study till late at night before my kind parents decide to take pity on me and fetch me home (i still haven't passed my driving!) or i crash at a friend's dorm (why didn't i chose to stay on college! why! why! why!)

only 2 weeks left!!!!! GAH.

but here's wishing you all a very belated happy new year! hope your christmases were all lovely :)

new year resolutions are:

1. stop procrastinating and actually do some work - i really need this. finals are only a year away and i'm still half-arsed about all the stuff i'm supposed to know, meaning i know nought. nothing.

2. put more effort into what i do - if it's worth doing, it's worth doing well! so there.

3. stop eating so much sweets and drinking so much caffeine - my caffeine addiction was so bad at one point i had to excuse myself from tutorials to run to the vending machine for a quick cup of coffee because i couldn't concentrate. oh dear. and i have got to stop eating sweets. my group mates pinch them off me all the time as they know i always carry sweets, and thus i am perpetually buying sweets for my group. SAVE MONEY!

4. which brings us to this: STOP SHOPPING RECKLESSLY. save money. nuff said.

5. exercise more - i'm not about to let last year's half-marathon go to waste! aim is to run 5 k at least once week and lift weights once a week. sounds miserable? well, i'm a medical student. we have no lives, remember?

6. spend more time with those who really matter. i'm sort of learning how to do this, it's a matter of spending more time with my family now :)

7. be neater. oh jess, i totally agree with the paper avalanche bit. my room is a disaster area and i can NEVER find anything when i want it. it's terrible. i have to shift stuff around to sit down or sleep. awful!

8. to be a nicer/meaner person. say it like you mean it - no more hiding behind things and pretending to care when i don't, and actually trying to be nice. paradoxical maybe, but i know what it means :)

9. to speak up more. i tend to be timid and hide behind my groupmates in hospitals because i'm never sure of myself. NO MORE BEING COWARDLY!

10. lastly, to devote more time to God and prayer. i really need this.

alright, 10 resolutions, made late! hopefully they stick for a bit. i'm not too sure about the coffee one though, with exams looming drastically near! :(

but may this year ahead be a good one, you all! :)

apparently, medical students don't go on vacation?

i've just gotten ahold of internet access after trudging through italy (gorgeous place, gorgeous people!) and i've found my email account inundated with all sorts of school-associated stuff, from updates about the upcoming exam schedule to tips and revision lectures and to arranging electives - all of which are going to be OVER BY TIME I RETURN HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm burning up with stress right now, i don't know what to think or do. all i can think of in my blind panic is how much i am in the deepest of shit (and yes, i haven't started my studying for the exams either, and they're major ones!!!)

oh woe. maybe medical students don't go on vacation after all. lesson learnt? take shorter holidays with internet access. :(

i'm sorry this 1st post of the year is so negative! but arghhh, the stress is killing me. a happier post soon i promise!